a long long long time ago

i was born. well, maybe it wasn't THAT long ago, but let me tell you, four days into my last year as a twenty-something it feels like it was. i am 29. tewnty-nine. thirty minus one. 40 minus 11. oh.my.god. 40-11. eleven years ago i was 18. eleven years from now i will be FORTY??? why oh why has this not occurred to me before now?? you should have told me! i am just as close to 18 as i am to 40. why do people not share this information? everyone gets so freaked out about being almost 30, but WE, THE ONES IN OUR TWENTY NINTH YEAR, ARE ALMOST 40!

i can not think about this anymore. i need a nap.