it's been a long long time since i have posted anything. i love this thing, i am not sure why i don't use it more often. i shall try harder dear friends...try harder!

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ESTJ-The Supervisor You scored 86% I to E, 84% N to S, 90% F to T, and 10% J to P!

Your type is known as the supervisor, as you are not hesitant to give your stamp of approval on others - or tell them how they are lacking if they are. You are surprised when others don't seem grateful that you have set them straight. Your type also belongs to the larger group called guardians. Experience is what matters to you, not experimentation or conjecture. You often take a lead role in the many groups and organizations you belong to. You worry a great deal about society falling apart, morality degrading, and what the world is coming to. You share your personality type with 10% of the population. As a romantic partner, you communicate very clearly your strong opinions so your partner always knows where they stand. You are dependable, responsible, and rock solid. You can be rather infexible about giving up any control and insist on keeping a schedule, although you have great energy and enthusiam for planned adventures. You have difficulty seeing other's points of view and your biggest downfall in a relationship is dismissing your partner's feelings as illogical. You feel most appreciated for being trustworthy, efficient, and productive. You wish to be thanked tangibly for the ways you keep your lives on track. Your group summary: Guardians (SJ) Your Type Summary: ESTJ

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 89% on I to E You scored higher than 97% on N to S You scored higher than 97% on F to T You scored higher than 4% on J to P

Link: The LONG Scientific Personality Test written by unpretentious2 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

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The Truth as He Knows It.

i am leaving tuesday morning at 6 am for new orleans. i am going for a week with my job and im experiencing a mulititude of feelings about the trip. part of me is nervous about flying on the little rc plane i am scheduled to be on for the hour flight to st louis. another part of me is strangely excited about going back to new orleans, even though i know it's not the same new orleans i only this year came to know and love. another part of me is embarrassingly scared to go into a situation i know nothing about. i know it's stupid and childish, but i feel like i am going into a war zone or something. i am nervous and wondering what i need to take with me and am i safe? i know it's stupid, i do, but the fear is real nonetheless. i am only hoping that when i get there it will all go away and i will be my normal fearless self...or at least be able to pretend to be that person.

anyone have any idea what i can expect?

i hate living in missouri. i am closing in on three years of being here *which is the longest i have EVER LIVED ANYWHERE* and i have hated it the whole time. it's not as bad as living in oklahoma again, but it's close. i am three thousand miles from anywhere, but smack in the middle of everything. that's the only good thing i can say about this place. everything is equally as far away. i can drive to chicago, washington dc, denver, new orleans, and houston in approximately the same amount of time. that's kind of cool i guess. but wait, i digress, i don't want to find anything good here. i am in the mood to be wistful about my true home, portland.

damn damn damn i miss portland. i love that city. i have a friend who is moving back to oregon in a couple of weeks and i am so damn jealous i can't stand it. i want to go back. it's nice to be close to my family, but i really want to be where i am happy. i used to literally thank God every day for being where i was. the city is so beautiful and the people actually care about things that matter to me. bleh...i could go on and on and on about how much i loved that place, but who wants to read about that? i will have to put some pictures on flickr for those of you who haven't had the opportunity to visit oregon. i am sure after my wonderful memories you will all want to go west and stay!

i found this shirt and i now have to have it. it makes me laugh. i love witty state shirts. i have a "utah, but im taller" one, a "colorado, how's your aspen?" and a "wisconsin, smell that dairy air." i also have a south korea's got seoul one. they crack me up. it's the simple things i suppose.

over at This Is Not Over alli completely articulated my entire problem with the whole bush team response *or lack thereof* to the tragedy in new orleans. i could not have said it better if i had taken a week to think about it before writing it. it is unconscionable that as a man he hasn't been more affected by this whole thing. i watch tv, read an article, THINK about it, and i get teary eyed. it's unbelievable that his white house has not expressed more EMOTION about this whole thing. i understand that maybe there weren't the resources available. maybe there was nothing that could be done, i don't believe that, but im willing to give that much benefit of the doubt. but when i heard ray nagin's emotional cry for help i previously posted it made me respect the man as a man. he was desperate, hurting for his people, his city, his life. bush has shown none of that. it's sickening how far removed he is from the country he "leads." it's literally sickening.

i didn't write about my trip to memphis, but oh i should have. i think i needed time to sober up, because let's face it, i drank more in memphis than i have in the two years proceeding memphis. i went for work with a motley crew of my co-workers. there were two hot, no, make that HOT guys, another that would be hot if he were about a foot taller, a girl who is for the most part a good friend of mine, a woman who has the worse fashion sense i have ever seen, and a woman who is roughly 55 years old. needless to say, it was an interesting trip. so many things to talk about....

1) i got lost as soon as i crossed the river into memphis and proceeded to stay that way until i crossed back over (by accident) into arkansas.

2) i drank copious amounts of alcohol, including but not limited to, something i can not pronounce, a literal bucket of goodness that had no ingredient listing on the side but made my feet have wings and my mouth have a motor, beer, shots of something else i can not pronounce, and a $7.00 long island that was about 4 ounces of liquid courage.

3) i lusted....no, make that LUSTED after one of said HOT boys in group. manymanymany things wrong with this. a) he is 19. b) i am his boss. c) he is 19. d) i may or may not have contributed to the ohsohot deliquency of said minor. e) he is so smart, hot, funny that i may have trouble not thinking about what happened in memphis for a long. long. long. time. oh yeah, did i mention that HE IS 19???

4) i learned a card trick. said hot boy taught it to me and lemme tell you, it freaks people out! it's a good one. i shall continue to bring out the party trick long past it's expiration date!

5) i learned that i *heart* the tennessee accent. i seriously do. it doesnt matter what they are saying, it's amazingly sexy. "you are hot", "would you like another drink?" "can you spare some change man?" all of it was amazingly sexy with that slow southern draw. i loveit loveit loveit. i want one of my very own.

totally off subject, but relevant to my life at the moment, TARA REID HAS AMAZINGLY HUGE BOOBS! oh. my. goodness. her chest is ridiculous. seriously out of control.

katrina....

so if rudy giuliani is considered a hero after 9/11 and all he did was remain calm in a horrific situation, what are we going to consider ray nagin, the mayor of new orleans? he is not afraid to call it like it is and he is calling the bush administration on their bullshit ass slow response to katrina. this man is pissed off and he is scared for his city. it's heartbreaking. if rudy is a hero this man is a god.